Saturday, April 25, 2009

Another anniversary of sorts

One year ago today, we found out that we were finally expecting a baby. I still remember that moment like it was yesterday . . . I had suspected I was pregnant (perhaps the positive home pregnancy test was a giveaway?) but we were so afraid to believe it was for real this time. I had gone in for a blood pregnancy test, and my beta was delivered to me by my nurse with a phone call. I was standing at the bottom of my stairs, and DH was upstairs. I answered the phone, and I remember her asking me how I was feeling, and all I could think was "I don't know, you tell me." She finally said "How about we call you momma" and I started bawling. I called to DH, and he came to the stairs, and we just sat there, crying and hugging each other. I learned that my beta was pretty darn high, so they thought I had a nice healthy bean growing.

What a roller coaster this last year has been - and wonderful. I can't believe how much has changed in my life, and I'm so thankful for everything that has happened. I'm also amazed that we are even thinking about going through this process all again. The thought terrifies me - getting back on that emotional roller coaster is going to be tough.

2 comments:

Mandy and Russel said...

Happy Anniversary :) This post made me cry, it is amazing what's changed since that day.

Krissy said...

I'm in tears too. Finding out your pregnant after a long, hard road (yours much harder than mine) is so amazing and now to have this awesome little being as a part of your life and family seems surreal at times. And other times you can't even imagine a life before he came along.