Do miracles really happen?

I'm not even sure where to begin with this post...I'm sitting here, once again stunned, wondering if miracles really do happen. As you all know, we've been sort of ttc'ing #2 - or, as I have preferred to think about the process, killing time until we start IUI in December or January (which is really just killing time until we do IVF next August). On some level, DH and I believed that ttc'ing early would increase our odds - we aren't quite ready to be pregnant yet (Micah is not yet one year and we need to either move or renovate to make room for another baby), but, we figured nature has a sick sense of humor, so inconvenience has to increase the odds! Last week, I contacted my RE and asked to start filling out the paperwork for IUI. I found out I have to re-do some tests, and I planned to start scheduling them once AF arrived. I'm traveling so much the next few months that I thought I would need one or two cycles to get the tests done on the "right" days.

Last cycle, I started spotting at 5dpo. Because of all the spotting, (and after a moment of insanity and thinking I *might* be pregnant) I figured I either was having PCOS issues (giving me a LPD) or that my fibroid was back in my uterine lining. I decided that this cycle, in addition to the instead cups, I'd use natural progesterone cream to try and reduce the spotting (and perhaps set me up for a better ovulation next cycle). About 1 week before ovulation, I started spotting for a few days. I assumed this was a clear sign that the fibroid was the culprit. Much to my surprise, I ovulated a day earlier than the previous cycle. Our timing was kind of lousy, though. We bd'd the first day of high on my monitor, nothing the 2nd day, and we bd'd again the first morning I hit peak on my monitor. We were going to bd O day, but Micah had other plans for us.

The day after ovulation, I started using natural progesterone cream. Day after day went by, and much to my surprise, no spotting. This morning came around - no spotting yet (not unusual for me on the progesterone cream). A friend of mine sent me some of those internet early pregnancy test strips for good luck a few weeks ago. Since I did not have any other tests in the house, I decided to use one of those internet tests to confirm I was not pregnant so I could comfortably stop using the cream - it usually takes 2 days for AF to show after I stop the cream, and I didn't want to prolong my cycle. I woke up this morning, peed in a cup, dipped the test, and saw this:


My heart stopped. I figured internet test, had to be an evap line, right? I woke DH up, showed it to him. First he said he didn't see anything, and then he said "well, maybe." Micah and I had plans to meet my parents and nieces at a pumpkin festival, so off we went! We had such a good time - we played, took a hayride (Micah ate straw and loved it), and enjoyed our day outside. I'll save the rest of the details for another post, but he was so excited watching his cousins jumping on the moon bounce - he was in the Ergo carrier, and he was also bouncing on the outside edge while watching them play!

We got home around 2, and Micah kept me running the rest of the afternoon while DH was at a conference. He came home around 5:45, and I crashed hard while DH fed Micah dinner, played with him, then put him to bed. Around 8:00, DH ran to the store for an FRER. Here is what we saw:

We're stunned, and don't know what to think! Clearly, that is positive. I'm going to start calling doctors tomorrow - I know I need progesterone support to carry a baby, and I am also at a very high risk for an early miscarriage or a blighted ovum. I'm going to try and schedule an ultrasound at 6 weeks and get that progesterone prescription. In the meantime, I still have progesterone left from my last pregnancy. WOW - things like this just don't happen, do they? I think you could probably knock me over with a feather. Hello - they said we had a 2-3% chance of getting pregnant on our own. This can't end well, right?

In the meantime - we now have to make some decisions about whether we move or put an addition on FAST! I kept joking about how the only way DH would make a decision is if I got knocked up. I think we are both in denial right now.